I'm so emotional.
I actually cried myself to sleep these few days. Tears are probably sleep-inducing, I guess.
I am such a failure in life, studies, family, and most of all, keeping friends. I just got my progress report back.. And although I seemed so damned happy, I am actually afraid. To let anyone down again. Since I got Top 5th, everyone's thinking it's nothing for me.
English: C5 (59/100)
Maths:
F9 (19/100)
Science: B4 (61/100 [80 for bio, 37 for chem])
Chinese:
F9 (5/100 WOOT =D)
Eng Lit: B4 (64/100)
Humanities:
F9 (28/100)
Pssh, I would've expected worse.
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Spoke to a few people who attempted to convince me not to keel myself. I won't jump off buildings. It's messy, painful for 20 seconds before death (that's the last thing I need; more pain), and besides, I'm altophobic~ So yeah, I'll find a method sooner or later. People would have to suffer less being around me. No more hatred with everyone around. My pain = gone since ghosts can't feel shit, and people would be much much much more happier seeing me gone. =D See, 一脚踏两船。 EH, NO!! Uhm, 一箭双雕！ Heh, not bad kay.
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Today I went for church, as usual. Nothing much, but I noticed more.. Indians going to church. I mean.. uhm.. I'm not racist laaahs. But why would they spend time in a church when they don't understand? ._. If you only believe, and don't understand what you're supposed to believe in.. what's the point of believing in the first place?
After which we went to IKEA to have a nice, cheap lunch. (Plenty of angmohs too! =O) But yeah, the salmon was nice. I can't believe my mum hates it. >_> Was so full after that I don't think I'll be taking dinner.
Walked to Queensway, and *dum dum dum!!* I finally bought my nikeeeessss. Purply and all, I thought of finally being able to rid myself of my other one. Yays. Joy, joy, joy. My grandparents are the bestest. Everything's so damn affordable for them.
<3uboth! Thanks. =)
anyhow whacked by gloria @ 1:12 pm
herself:
gloria sinclair chua;
nineteen;
08121988;
saggitarius;
dragon;
singaporean;
a photographer wannabe,
an aspiring hairstylist,
and a hopeless apparel designer.
would die for:
a score of 20 and below.
some form of world peace.
the Japanese language.
a Japanese dictionary.
learning guitar/piano/drums.
an mp3.
new earpieces.
a synthesizer/keyboard.
a Gibson Thunderbird IV bass. <3
an LCD monitor.
a laptop.
an art tablet.
a New Urban Male bag.
a nice jacket/sweater.
BMW X-5 SERIES!!@~!@~!!
a new pencilbox.
her own skateboard.
Wacom Graphire 3.
a small wooden manequinn.
new spectacles.
a pair of twin kodachi.
a trip to Florida.
a new house.
a refurbished room.
a walk-in wardrobe.
infinite haircuts.
red hair.
purple hair.
blue hair.
gold highlights.
red highlights.
white highlights.
coloured hair extensions.(OMGSOLIAN)
a new watch.
loathes:
coffee
bullies
gore
green
bad hair days
Adidas
vegetables
heights
snooty asswipes
tone-deaf "singers"
ingrates
flying critters
storms ._.
the dark
silence
liars
alter-ego o_O
attention seekers
people that give it to them
ultimatums
loves:
angmohs oho!
family
friends
SHOPPING
picking on bullies :D
literature
this and this and this and this
art
anime
music
musicians
ROCCKKK
surprises
lightsticks! <3
gaming~
the beach
KoF~
Ben & Jerry's
keeping promises
challenges
aishah.
aliman.
bryan.
cassie.
cheryl.
daisy.
edmundooi.
eunice.
farhanah.
jiemin.
jerry.
josline.
kaitou!
kelly.
moonkian.
noel.
renny.
ron.
rona ♥
shosho.
tiffany.
travis.
koyo.
valerie!
weixiang.
william.
yanliang.
yaozhong.
yin ♥
- GazetteShop.
- NihilistGiraffe.
- DeviantART.
- Fark.com.
- lyrics.
- megatokyo.
- orisinal.
- endofworld.
- theresheis!
- theresheis!II
Blogger.
Photoshop.
Imageshack.
Google.com
Stock.
Stock #2.
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