Friday, June 29, 2007
My parents thought I could make it.But no. I am so fucking useless.
anyhow whacked by gloria @ 9:40 am
Thursday, June 28, 2007
I have wasted one year and over eight thousand dollars on something I never planned to succeed nor have a future with. No, I'm not talking about a prostitute (wtf is wrong with you peoples' minds o_o).I am no longer a student of SIM.
Goodbye school life, hello working life.
Yes, you can say that it was my parents' money, but it was I who shamefully wasted it.
As much as I'm upset, I just feel like being alone a while. I've cut all contact with everyone from SIM, cept for Daisy who might read this every now and then. Apart from that, there really isn't anyone else whom I'd really talk to because I've never felt accepted there anyway.
I'm considering NAFA after I pay back my uh, debts. I should've gone with min for the interview while she asked after O's.. Sigh. I'm such a failure -_-
Regret isn't exactly the best option right now though. Even Al Gore would've slapped me with a manbearpig and told me "Excelsior!".
.. Don't worry, if I still have the mood to be lame, that means I'm not suicidal yet.
Anyway, I'm trying my best to cheer up so I'll post a new source of love.
... Well they're not exactly new, but whoever has their songs.. do me a big favour and send them my way. AAA (short for Attack All Around) has been discovered! (Shit, too much WoW now argh.) I combed HMV with Vince for them but to no avail :< Apparently they're kinda old I think.
But they sang a song for an Initial D movie entitled "Blood on Fire", which might explain their genre.
I couldn't find a video of them on youtube, so here's a link of them with 'Champagne Gold'. It's more like Initial D/para-para (I know, omgwtf) music though, but hey you know that gets me going sometimes. Besides, they look like they're enjoying dancing so much you just have to cheer up watching them unless you hate this kinda music. o_o
Enjoy, I know I did.
Takahiro's voice is so cute. XD
anyhow whacked by gloria @ 11:15 pm
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Me: "I just wish I could turn back time and done some things right in my life."コリイ: "So do I.. but what's happened has happened - we just need to do what we can now to fix it."
That was all I needed to hear today. Anyone could've told me that, but it just made it so much more meaning coming from someone who really knows what it feels like and means it.
I'm going to do it. No more lying anymore.
anyhow whacked by gloria @ 8:01 am
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
I need 100 bucks and I need it nowwwww. D:<If only I could get my pay in advance, but noooo - I have to wait like half a month more before I get my hands on my pay.
I NEED MUNNIES AND I NEED THEM NAO!
*Stomps*
anyhow whacked by gloria @ 11:58 pm
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
I just want to get away from this all and start anew.I just wasted 1 year of my life on a place I never wanted to go to. A place I knew I had no future in but was told to go because I listen. I have so much remorse right now, and all I can do is cry? Where is a good slap-in-the-face "suck it up, whiner" reprimand when you need it.
Oh I'll definitely get a reprimanding..
I can't look at anyone in the face anymore.
Everytime someone tells me "remember there are people worse off than you", I feel like strangling that person because IT DOESN'T REALLY FUCKING HELP NOW, DOES IT?
I can't blame my parents for making me come to this school. If I told them I had my own plans I would've deviated and slacked all this while. I blame myself for trying too hard to get into a polytechnic course I could never achieve.
I blame myself.
And I can fix this mess, but I have to face so many people..
Argh, suck it up Gloria.. You're 19 already. SIM diploma or not, suck it up.
anyhow whacked by gloria @ 4:52 pm
Thursday, June 14, 2007
I don't know. I'm the kind of person who doesn't cry because it's over, but smiled because it happened. Or so you may think.Going through problems in life again. Sure sure this is a blog and I'm supposed to just poooooour everything out, but since this isn't your typical Dear Diary moment where only the writer (besides, it's not like I'm considered anonymous) know about it, I prefer to keep mum. I can safely divulge that it's a lose-lose situation here though. Meh, I'll have to consider my priorities and figure out a way.
My friends asked me if I just make up my life as it happens..
I told them that since you'll never really know what happens in life, best to expect the unexpected and prepare for everything and anything. Which is probably why I tend to get paranoid and get all ready for worst-case scenario solutions. And that might also explain my happy-go-lucky nature, since I have no qualms about obstacles.
*Shrugs*
To me, every problem has it's solution. Nothing is impossible, just really difficult. I've told myself that since I was a child. Yes, at the age of 6 I was telling myself that whoever said things were impossible were just lazy to figure out a way to handle the issue at hand.
That might be why I'm usually lost in thought, because I'm just trying to solve a little problem like.. getting that child's balloon from the ceiling that no one can reach.
Ah, I can still remember that glorious day..
For 10 minutes I watched people struggle and jump to reach that balloon. Then I took tape, a ruler, and handed it to the tallest person (that despite all the jumping and hopping and even brought a chair, could not reach). I asked him to try hitting the balloon with the now-sticky taped ruler, and the balloon came down, stuck on the ruler. (Btw, the balloon didn't have its string attached to it, which apparently made it the problem in the first place, lol.)
It's just little things that people can do when they're observing; a train of thought that runs through your mind giving you an invisible mind map of solutions and picking out the most practical and accomplishable one. Just a matter of being able to clear your mind and focus.
Sadly, I wish that would happen when it came to studying.
Oh yeah I forgot, it only happens when you're interested in something. Now I just wish I could train my mind to like something totally abhorring. >_>
anyhow whacked by gloria @ 10:32 pm
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVIES~!Speaking of awesome movies, 2007 is going to be like THE movie year. So many nice things to watch! :D
Transformers: (Yes, the oldschool becomes holywtfgraphics<3)
Then there's Fantastic 4: Rise of the Silver Surfer:
Underdog: (Wow, major oldschool cartoon)
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix: (Not going to miss out on this but wtf he cut his hair ;___; BUT YES THE TWINS! THE TWINS!!!!!)
There was supposedly going to be a Halo movie (yes, HALO <3), but Corey told me it was cancelled. I R SAD NAO. ;__;
Also there was something about Avatar. If it's what I think it is, then I hope the trailer comes out soon.
Hairspray: This movie is just like Grease, with John Travolta and a lot of other spankingly awesome stars. I don't mind watching it, to be honest. XD Like helloooo, Zac Efron too? Why the hell not :D Star-studded cast + 70's theme = awesome movie.
Resident Evil 3: Extinction: (FUCKING AWESOME O_O)
Ocean's Thirteen: (Yaaaaaaaaaay Matt Damon!)
The Bourne Ultimatum: (AND MORE MATT DAMON! :D)
... Never before has one year had so many awesome movies. And this year started off with 300, which just marks this year the spiffiest of film-ness thingies.
anyhow whacked by gloria @ 10:24 pm
Monday, June 04, 2007
Gwen Stefani is pretty. The MTV is boring, but I can't stop listening to the song.
Then there's Maroon 5 with their new hit single "Makes Me Wonder", but - kay fine, so it's not exactly new... I've been too cropped up with other things that I don't really have time for a lot of other things anyway. Still, it's nice though.
I watched Pirates of the Caribbean with my cousin today. JOHNNY DEPP IS LOVE. :D
But why Chow Yuan Fat? Wait okay fine Mr Chow is fine but.. Pirate Lord of Singapore? Now everyone will search up Chow Yuan Fat and see that he came from uh, China or w/e he's from and associate us with China. As all angmohs tend to do.
"Where you from?"
"Singapore"
"Is that somewhere near Hong Kong?"
"....."
Or maybe it was done due to the fact that Singapore is full of piracy. Oh well..
The seas be ours and by the powers
Where we will, we'll roam.
Yo ho, haul together, hoist the colours high
Heave ho, thieves and beggars, never shall we die!
anyhow whacked by gloria @ 8:49 am