Thursday, January 13, 2005
As I mentioned before once in my blog; Secondary five.. Bigshots? Hahh.We're nowhere near anything near Express status. Nowhere near their intelligence. Nowhere near the ability nor the responsibility.
I had to do detention for both Lit and Humanities today. Go me. I just reached home and started to do my blogging and yes, whine here. Whine whine whine.
Anyway, it started out okay. I completed ALL my maths and I mean -ALL-. Mrs Chiu was rather surprised, I guess. Review, 1B, Holiday Assignment, and yesterday's homework. See, so guai... *slaps self* No lar. Kudos to yindi and min who helped me yesterday, I was only then able to complete it.
Then it was PE. Didn't bring attire. Suay bo..
Followed by a nice session of HUMANITIES. Hooray. Having your DM for Humanities teacher is NOT good. I cried while he scolded the seven of us.
1) I was feeling guilty because he just came back from malaysia (will not reveal reason why he went there) and had to get angry because of us.
2) He had to hurt it further by saying "you don't deserve to be among the Top 5 students in N level".
...he's right. I don't.
I didn't work my way to get there. I'm fucking irresponsible, I'm a born procrastinator, and I hate working hard to achieve something UNLESS it's something I really want. Putting 3 A1's on my wishlist was merely something that I could just drool and dream for. I did NOT study for my N's. I did not even lift a finger to care. I don't deserve it, he's right. I'd rather give it to someone else who deserves it more, and just study in school w/o doing homework. Seriously, if school was like that, I will not hesitate to try harder during exams. With homework, and piling up EVERYDAY, I am not able to cope, seeing that I have never done homework myself since I was Primary One.
I spent my recess crying and thinking about this. I was reminded about my lit of which I have not finished, and cried harder thinking of how much I actually have let my teacher down. I don't deserve any of her help. I don't deserve what should be called a "bright future".
When Mr Chan saw that I was crying after recess, he decided not to go any further on my absence of attire during PE. I was grateful.
When Literature lesson came, everyone hurried to finish up the work. I knew I couldn't, and Mrs Hoe was already collecting bags. She didn't catch me, thinking that I had finished. Again, being the total IDIOT I am, I handed my bag over. Yay. Time for detention after school. Oh wait, now I have TWO. Double-yay.
I stayed in class after school to try and finish my literature, but with the intense amount of noise, I could not complete it. Tiger wanted to see us, too. We went down, got a blasting, and had to stay back. Yay. No recess, no lunch. We were only allowed to leave when we had finished.
Nick and I were the only two trying to finish, since the others had finished it faster than us and by some other means/ways. We finished it together, and had to wait for Tiger to release us. While we were waiting, Nick was telling me what impression Junhao gave of him.
A rude idiot.
Guess what? I totally AGREE.
His old nick on MSN read: "To~th0s3~wh0~diDn'T~mak3~f0r~sEc~5~t00~b@d~Ha~ha~hA~HA" or something like that. I did recall I hated snobs. I also recall I HATE people who tyPe LiKe ThiS and St4rt t0 us3 nuMb3r5 @nd 5ymb0|s t0 typ3. I remember telling off Sean for typing like tHaTz, and now I see that he's stopped, rather. ANYWAY. Back to jh. Both of us agreed he had become some incredibly rude fuckhead, and with pride that he tries to show off when he is actually an ALGERNON. Yes my fellow Literature people, that laboratory mouse.
Nick: "So rude sia, on MSN he say 'eh bastard' to me."
Me: "Wtf?"
Nick: "Yah lar, then I said (okay I forgot what Nick said x_x), and he said 'shut up lar fucker'"
Me: "... Fucking idiot he is. (goes on to explain what he did when he spoke to me on MSN with that rude nick on) and he goes '_|_'. I was like.. whatever."
Nick: "Stupid sia he!"
And yes, that was part of our conversation. The rest.. was about him insulting Tiger. Mean ass he is. >>
Anyway, when Mrs Hoe gave me back my bag when I told her the classrooms were locked, I found that my wallet, Fai's nametag, tie and key were missing from my front pocket, and that the zip was left open. I was shocked and wondered how the HELL I was to go home. She went "I'm sorry dear, but I have no responsibility over this.." (I hate it when people say that.. x_x) "*sigh* Why does this have to happen you, dear." (Bah, at least she cares. BE MY AUNT! NOT NICK'S!) Anyway, when she opened the HoD room door, she went "Glooriiiaaa. Come here." I ran over, and stared at her finger which was pointing on the floor, and there lay my wallet, Fai's nametag and my key. I wanted to ask "where's my tie?" but I just acted dumb, thanked her and scooted off lest I got into more trouble.
Went home after Tiger collected Nick and my work.
On my way to the lift, I saw these few kids playing soccer at the void deck. One particular boy kicked it too far and went "sia laarr", so I thought he was one of the malay kids. Was rather tanned too. He ran up beside me since the ball was kicked around 10 meters in front of me while I was walking, looked up beside me, and smiled. Pretty cute kid, I thought. So I smiled back. Being shorter than me, I noticed his hair was purple. Dyed it, doh.
Him: *looks at me* What?
Me: *points to own head* Rambut kau, nicey. (don't know if I spelt it right, I know my malay sucks. But anyway what I tried to say was 'your hair, nice' in malay)
Him: *puzzled look*
Me: *puzzled look as well*
Him: Ni hui jiang hua yu ma? (Can you speak chinese?)
Me: *wtf is going on..?* Err, ke yi. (I can)
Him: Haha, wo shi sec one leh! (I'm sec one!)
Me: *still doesn't know wtf's going on* Oh, okay..
Him: Ni ye shi hor? (You too, right?)
Me: ... kns. *walks off)
ENOUGH OF CALLING ME A SEC ONE ALREADY.
anyhow whacked by gloria @ 6:32 pm