I am missing something in my life.
I can't talk to him without having my heart skip a beat.
I am not trying to do what everyone thinks I am.
I can't hold out much longer.
I am not having an infatuation.
I can't believe I'm doing this.
I am so dead if I said it.
I can't say it.
I won't say it.
I couldn't.
And I don't know why... *sigh*
She hurts him like he was just a rag doll without feelings. Pierces him. The excruciating pain he bears, the overpowering sorrow he goes through.. he forgets it immediately the minute he is able to make her smile, even for a second. After that, he doesn't mind even if she tears him apart. I can't bear to see this bs go on. I want to stop it, but he won't let me. Who the hell can put up with such torture? She doesn't love him, she merely uses him. Toys with him. Just for the fun of it. I already told him she already had someone else, but he was such a stubborn ass. Pfffft, men. I couldn't possibly just take him and show him when they were together, it would totally break his heart, knowing the kinda person he is, I would say he would commit suicide over this. I don't even know what I'm feeling here; I don't love him. I don't... right? Yeah, he's just a good friend who's being used. I'm just trying to show him what's true, so that the truth won't hurt as much as finding it out later by himself. I don't want to know what's going to happen to me if he should kill himself over her. Why the hell do people want to be so rash? THINK people,
THINK. Feeling
very ranty.
Bitchy, rather.
ARGH. *pulls out hair from head* Damn it, why can't he just wake up....
anyhow whacked by gloria @ 6:40 pm
herself:
gloria sinclair chua;
nineteen;
08121988;
saggitarius;
dragon;
singaporean;
a photographer wannabe,
an aspiring hairstylist,
and a hopeless apparel designer.
would die for:
a score of 20 and below.
some form of world peace.
the Japanese language.
a Japanese dictionary.
learning guitar/piano/drums.
an mp3.
new earpieces.
a synthesizer/keyboard.
a Gibson Thunderbird IV bass. <3
an LCD monitor.
a laptop.
an art tablet.
a New Urban Male bag.
a nice jacket/sweater.
BMW X-5 SERIES!!@~!@~!!
a new pencilbox.
her own skateboard.
Wacom Graphire 3.
a small wooden manequinn.
new spectacles.
a pair of twin kodachi.
a trip to Florida.
a new house.
a refurbished room.
a walk-in wardrobe.
infinite haircuts.
red hair.
purple hair.
blue hair.
gold highlights.
red highlights.
white highlights.
coloured hair extensions.(OMGSOLIAN)
a new watch.
loathes:
coffee
bullies
gore
green
bad hair days
Adidas
vegetables
heights
snooty asswipes
tone-deaf "singers"
ingrates
flying critters
storms ._.
the dark
silence
liars
alter-ego o_O
attention seekers
people that give it to them
ultimatums
loves:
angmohs oho!
family
friends
SHOPPING
picking on bullies :D
literature
this and this and this and this
art
anime
music
musicians
ROCCKKK
surprises
lightsticks! <3
gaming~
the beach
KoF~
Ben & Jerry's
keeping promises
challenges
aishah.
aliman.
bryan.
cassie.
cheryl.
daisy.
edmundooi.
eunice.
farhanah.
jiemin.
jerry.
josline.
kaitou!
kelly.
moonkian.
noel.
renny.
ron.
rona ♥
shosho.
tiffany.
travis.
koyo.
valerie!
weixiang.
william.
yanliang.
yaozhong.
yin ♥
- GazetteShop.
- NihilistGiraffe.
- DeviantART.
- Fark.com.
- lyrics.
- megatokyo.
- orisinal.
- endofworld.
- theresheis!
- theresheis!II
Blogger.
Photoshop.
Imageshack.
Google.com
Stock.
Stock #2.
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