Friday, December 17, 2004
This is to be the scariest. Day. Ever.I was already shaking in fear when I arrived at the canteen wehile waiting. Seriously, I was already ready to accept the fact that I would not make it and go to ITE/SHATEC to further my studies.
I received a letter from the Singapore Navy last week, and was kinda shocked, seeing that they thought I would go to ITE to be some mechanic specialist. Tsk, I'm not made for these kinda jobs.. but something caught my eye. They offered a SHATEC course somewhat for people who wanted to be a Naval Chef. I thought: That's not too bad, besides, I kinda like cooking like every female (apart from my dear sister *sigh*) in my family. If I fail, I just might sign up for that.
So I was pretty much scared, since I do want to go to Sec 5 and complete my O's for the sake of my want of the Mass Communication course. Mr Chan, Tiger, and Mr Tan didn't seem to be able to make the AVA Theatrette any less a place of anxiety.. in a horrible way. Their solemn faces, that ever-threatening look.. I was ready to just drop dead right there and then. I was so regretting writing a thousand words for my essay, and also that article format for my Situation Writing was such a headache. I even thought of failing my English. All sorts of horrible thoughts started to swarm in like some irritating bee, or in other words, a bee that resembled.. Nicholas. Lmfao.
So when my principal stepped in, I was like "Great. Does she have to watch us suffer?" I was over at my seat with Jiamin, and ready to just grab her and cry my eyes out when I fail.
Dear Mrs Ong started speaking. She was glad that we could make it, and those that couldn't would have to strive for their education.. blah blah and so on. Then she said "I'll now announce the Top 5 students of the Normal Acad stream." My heart sank, knowing I'd never get anywhere close to that. I've been only top 20. I didn't even make any effort for my subjects, other than my Biology and Chemistry, which are my favourite two apart from English itself (but since I already lost hope in it.. I didn't give two hoots about top 5. I was even hesitant about passing, lmao!).
My principal went on. "Okay, I'll start from the Top 5th. Um.. Chua Shu Mei?"
My heart stopped.
I gaped.
All eyes were on me and people were like, "whoa Gloria! Not bad sia~!"
As I walked down the aisle, I started to feel tears welling down my eyes.. I was crying. I wasn't going to disappoint my mum. Back in my mind, the voice of my principal went on.. "She has got 3 A1's.."
I couldn't stop disbelieving it. I was just feeling totally shocked. I never expected myself to pass, let alone be among the top five..
I was shocked Qian Nan, our China 'child-prodigy', did not get 1st. Instead, she got 2nd and Aishah took her place. Well, everyone was shocked as well.. but I suppose we can't let her get the crown always. ^^;
When we returned to our seats, I was walking up the stairs and crying while going back to my seat. Reaching my seat, I merely whispered "tissue please.." among everyone that seemed to yell "Congratulations Gloria!"
I couldn't stop crying.. Jiamin just hugged me every now and then to remind me I did a good job and not to cry. But afterwards it was her turn to be all jittery. She was like me, hella scared of failing. I assured her she would definitely make it, seeing that I already did.
And indeed, she did.
Well.. I didn't let any of my teachers down, and my mum is definitely glad. Can you smell Marche tonight? ~_^
anyhow whacked by gloria @ 5:03 pm