Wednesday, June 20, 2007

I just want to get away from this all and start anew.

I just wasted 1 year of my life on a place I never wanted to go to. A place I knew I had no future in but was told to go because I listen. I have so much remorse right now, and all I can do is cry? Where is a good slap-in-the-face "suck it up, whiner" reprimand when you need it.

Oh I'll definitely get a reprimanding..


I can't look at anyone in the face anymore.
Everytime someone tells me "remember there are people worse off than you", I feel like strangling that person because IT DOESN'T REALLY FUCKING HELP NOW, DOES IT?

I can't blame my parents for making me come to this school. If I told them I had my own plans I would've deviated and slacked all this while. I blame myself for trying too hard to get into a polytechnic course I could never achieve.

I blame myself.
And I can fix this mess, but I have to face so many people..



Argh, suck it up Gloria.. You're 19 already. SIM diploma or not, suck it up.

anyhow whacked by gloria @ 4:52 pm






herself:



gloria sinclair chua;
nineteen;
08121988;
saggitarius;
dragon;
singaporean;
a photographer wannabe,
an aspiring hairstylist,
and a hopeless apparel designer.

would die for:



a score of 20 and below.
some form of world peace.
the Japanese language.
a Japanese dictionary.
learning guitar/piano/drums.
an mp3.
new earpieces.
a synthesizer/keyboard.
a Gibson Thunderbird IV bass. <3
an LCD monitor.
a laptop.
an art tablet.
a New Urban Male bag.
a nice jacket/sweater.
BMW X-5 SERIES!!@~!@~!!
a new pencilbox.
her own skateboard.
Wacom Graphire 3.
a small wooden manequinn.
new spectacles.
a pair of twin kodachi.
a trip to Florida.
a new house.
a refurbished room.
a walk-in wardrobe.
infinite haircuts.
red hair.
purple hair.
blue hair.
gold highlights.
red highlights.
white highlights.
coloured hair extensions.(OMGSOLIAN)
a new watch.

loathes:


coffee
bullies
gore
green
bad hair days
Adidas
vegetables
heights
snooty asswipes
tone-deaf "singers"
ingrates
flying critters
storms ._.
the dark
silence
liars
alter-ego o_O
attention seekers
people that give it to them
ultimatums

loves:


angmohs oho!
family
friends
SHOPPING
picking on bullies :D
literature
this and this and this and this
art
anime
music
musicians
ROCCKKK
surprises
lightsticks! <3
gaming~
the beach
KoF~
Ben & Jerry's
keeping promises
challenges hollerback here:


my solace:

aishah.
aliman.
bryan.
cassie.
cheryl.
daisy.
edmundooi.
eunice.
farhanah.
jiemin.
jerry.
josline.
kaitou!
kelly.
moonkian.
noel.
renny.
ron.
rona ♥
shosho.
tiffany.
travis.
koyo.
valerie!
weixiang.
william.
yanliang.
yaozhong.
yin ♥

- GazetteShop.
- NihilistGiraffe.
- DeviantART.
- Fark.com.
- lyrics.
- megatokyo.
- orisinal.
- endofworld.
- theresheis!
- theresheis!II

credits:

Blogger.
Photoshop.
Imageshack.
Google.com
Stock.
Stock #2.



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