Do I have to kill myself to show that life is so much more fucking precious than wasting everyone's time on arguments and their pettiness?
I hate arguments. Especially being involved and yet being unable to do anything.
I was probably thinking about that on the last night in chalet, hence the really glum face. What if my real self wasn't that happy all the time? People are so used to the cheerful me that if I have a black face it means trouble?
I come back from chalet, happy like anything knowing I had spent a few days with my classmates, and had a great time.
I guess I wanted to go because I wanted to get away from all the quarrelling my family was getting into. My sister and farhan, my parents, and me thinking of the dumbest things even beyond my comprehension to this day.
I was walking home and I could hear a piano playing in the background. It was probably my ex-tuition teacher, since I always used to hear her play whenever I was done with my lessons. I smiled, since I recognised that piece.
Frédéric Chopin's 'Fantasie Impromptu' in C sharp major. Yes lol, that piece Andy was like die-die "want to master". It was nostalgic to me, since it's like a piece that reminded me of the class and teachers.
But I come home to my mum telling me I spend so much, I don't even earn, and she quarreled with daddy again over some stupid money problem..
.. I just couldn't take it and cried the hell out of myself. I tried running away from these problems by spending time with nice friends and come home just to see the problems coming back to blow up in my face.
Then mum told me she was just joking. Please lor. If it's to your amusement that you find money more important then even asking how my trip was, I'd rather just kill myself to show you that your 'humour' can really "笑死人".
Gah.
I'm going to go sleep, the lethargy is probably getting to me.
anyhow whacked by gloria @ 12:22 pm
herself:
gloria sinclair chua;
nineteen;
08121988;
saggitarius;
dragon;
singaporean;
a photographer wannabe,
an aspiring hairstylist,
and a hopeless apparel designer.
would die for:
a score of 20 and below.
some form of world peace.
the Japanese language.
a Japanese dictionary.
learning guitar/piano/drums.
an mp3.
new earpieces.
a synthesizer/keyboard.
a Gibson Thunderbird IV bass. <3
an LCD monitor.
a laptop.
an art tablet.
a New Urban Male bag.
a nice jacket/sweater.
BMW X-5 SERIES!!@~!@~!!
a new pencilbox.
her own skateboard.
Wacom Graphire 3.
a small wooden manequinn.
new spectacles.
a pair of twin kodachi.
a trip to Florida.
a new house.
a refurbished room.
a walk-in wardrobe.
infinite haircuts.
red hair.
purple hair.
blue hair.
gold highlights.
red highlights.
white highlights.
coloured hair extensions.(OMGSOLIAN)
a new watch.
loathes:
coffee
bullies
gore
green
bad hair days
Adidas
vegetables
heights
snooty asswipes
tone-deaf "singers"
ingrates
flying critters
storms ._.
the dark
silence
liars
alter-ego o_O
attention seekers
people that give it to them
ultimatums
loves:
angmohs oho!
family
friends
SHOPPING
picking on bullies :D
literature
this and this and this and this
art
anime
music
musicians
ROCCKKK
surprises
lightsticks! <3
gaming~
the beach
KoF~
Ben & Jerry's
keeping promises
challenges
aishah.
aliman.
bryan.
cassie.
cheryl.
daisy.
edmundooi.
eunice.
farhanah.
jiemin.
jerry.
josline.
kaitou!
kelly.
moonkian.
noel.
renny.
ron.
rona ♥
shosho.
tiffany.
travis.
koyo.
valerie!
weixiang.
william.
yanliang.
yaozhong.
yin ♥
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- DeviantART.
- Fark.com.
- lyrics.
- megatokyo.
- orisinal.
- endofworld.
- theresheis!
- theresheis!II
Blogger.
Photoshop.
Imageshack.
Google.com
Stock.
Stock #2.
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