Why did I even listen to my mum about not wanting a poly because it's more expensive than JC/MI. Now she doesn't even want to back me up, and even tells me she never said such a thing in the first place. I can't even tell my family anything because all they see is their own interest.
Mum only cares about monetary issues. Hers, in particular.
Dad only cares about A level, and how he's gonna end up teaching me Maths in his own way, which is probably some F Maths method I'd never comprehend because I never took A Maths in the first place.
My sister only talks about some course
she's interested in, and how I would find it "interesting".
Considering my sister took an extra semester because she probably had no interest in her course, I felt that I
had to get BioMed Sci no matter what because I don't want to do something against my will and end up failing and making things worse as it is already.
I really feel lost.. I don't want to go to MI, and I don't really give a rat's ass if everyone else likes it because I can get my A levels there. None of them ever considered how far fetched it is for me to take Maths, Literature, Economics, much less taking up GP and/or KI. If I failed A's I have to spend another year retaking? Or go back to square 1, waiting for a poly to accept me?
I hope they don't set the appeal posting date too late, I don't know what to do since RP said the appeals are open until April. By then, I'd be considered playing truant in MI, wouldn't I? But I can't hide forever. I feel like a fugitive, running away from everything and being afraid of being caught.
And yet, I can't express any of these into words I speak because I'd probably end up bursting in tears because of supressing all that fear inside. But they all don't care, all they care about is me going for A levels, and hoping I can go Uni through there. Everyone thinks going there is nothing big, so why can't I?
If I couldn't cope even with an extra year for O's despite being a Secondary 5 student, what makes them think it's easy with an extra year for A level?
None I say, none.
anyhow whacked by gloria @ 4:23 pm
herself:
gloria sinclair chua;
nineteen;
08121988;
saggitarius;
dragon;
singaporean;
a photographer wannabe,
an aspiring hairstylist,
and a hopeless apparel designer.
would die for:
a score of 20 and below.
some form of world peace.
the Japanese language.
a Japanese dictionary.
learning guitar/piano/drums.
an mp3.
new earpieces.
a synthesizer/keyboard.
a Gibson Thunderbird IV bass. <3
an LCD monitor.
a laptop.
an art tablet.
a New Urban Male bag.
a nice jacket/sweater.
BMW X-5 SERIES!!@~!@~!!
a new pencilbox.
her own skateboard.
Wacom Graphire 3.
a small wooden manequinn.
new spectacles.
a pair of twin kodachi.
a trip to Florida.
a new house.
a refurbished room.
a walk-in wardrobe.
infinite haircuts.
red hair.
purple hair.
blue hair.
gold highlights.
red highlights.
white highlights.
coloured hair extensions.(OMGSOLIAN)
a new watch.
loathes:
coffee
bullies
gore
green
bad hair days
Adidas
vegetables
heights
snooty asswipes
tone-deaf "singers"
ingrates
flying critters
storms ._.
the dark
silence
liars
alter-ego o_O
attention seekers
people that give it to them
ultimatums
loves:
angmohs oho!
family
friends
SHOPPING
picking on bullies :D
literature
this and this and this and this
art
anime
music
musicians
ROCCKKK
surprises
lightsticks! <3
gaming~
the beach
KoF~
Ben & Jerry's
keeping promises
challenges
aishah.
aliman.
bryan.
cassie.
cheryl.
daisy.
edmundooi.
eunice.
farhanah.
jiemin.
jerry.
josline.
kaitou!
kelly.
moonkian.
noel.
renny.
ron.
rona ♥
shosho.
tiffany.
travis.
koyo.
valerie!
weixiang.
william.
yanliang.
yaozhong.
yin ♥
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- NihilistGiraffe.
- DeviantART.
- Fark.com.
- lyrics.
- megatokyo.
- orisinal.
- endofworld.
- theresheis!
- theresheis!II
Blogger.
Photoshop.
Imageshack.
Google.com
Stock.
Stock #2.
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